okay i am at the same place i started with the same answer iv been getting.........what am i  to do  when i cant move on i never have been able to even when i  was with some one ells all i could think of was thing of the other girl ...i never could  think about only the some one ells it was always the other girl...but you see its not just any girl it is  the girl  iv been in love with for a wail.........a girl  no mat what is going on. if its fighting   or something else  no mater what she still has my hart and is  num 1 in my life......but this is were it get s hard  when that  girl you are so in love with  and want to be with so bad dosent feel the same about you.....she says she cant  and that  she dosent want a bf  which i under stand ..... but it hurts  especially when it comes to me..... all i ever wanted was a chance a chance to hold her the  way you would hold a gf........wats is it dose she think i am not bf material if thats so i am at fault cuz she seen the way i was with the others but see  i was not in love with them  ......if i was with the one i was truly in love with no way in hell would i be like that to her cuz see actually means something to me i actually care  about what she feels  .....and 99% of the time i say stuff that makes her mad i am just playing.......but when i say i love her and wanna be with her more tan any thing in this world  now that is 100% not playing and i do mean it......so i am just going to keep doing what iv been doing  all this time and that is wait  and hopefully one of these days it will happ....but until then i am just going to be happy with what i already got and that is our friendship. ....but i am not giving up.......lol...............

nano